It is Christmas eve here in Australia and I am watching Carols on Tv.
It has been raining a bit, and up here in the country everyone really needs and wants the rain. I think all of Australia would like some rain this christmas.
It has finally rained in Goulburn. Yeahhh
I really would love peace, understanding, happiness and love.
I am still quite emotional and as I watch the carols I cry whenever they show little children there in Melbourne where it is very cold tonight.
Tomorrow we are having Christmas lunch with Jas's family. Jas's mum is going to make a seafood salad with scallops, prawns and salmon, avocado and all lovely things. I don't think I can eat much seafood being pregnant. But i am better with food now, and can eat almost anything without feel ill in the stomach or wanting to puke a bit.
We also are going to have more salads (asparagus), prawn and scallop skewers on the barbie, plus bowls and bowls of prawns. For desert there will be a pavlova (Jas and I have to make it tomorrow morning), rum balls (Made by Jas sister and little 2 year old niece, and mars bars slice.
Tomorrow everyone will open their presents, and the little ones are so excited as Santa is coming. Jas has to get some horse poo (fresh of course) from the paddock to put out at the front of the house to imitate reindeer poo.
I am chatting to my brother with google talk, he is in Patagonia with my parents and his girlfriend and told me not to be sad by Christmas and he saw a documentary on all the poor people in Argentina.
I know that is the reality check, there is so much poverty and war and disasters in this world. He said these people don't even have pan dulce or Christmas cake, but they have each other and he said we have each other too.
That makes me cry even more...
I guess Christmas does not mean that much to me or my family as we are jewish but growing up in Australia one gets accustomed to Christmas and presents and eating.
We will spend Christmas and new year up here in the upper Hunter Valley with my other half Jas and his family and go back to Sydney in January with Jas.
In Early January I have to go to a prenatal hospital appointment. I am also going to New Zealand on a paleontological dig so that should be exciting but a bit terrifying at the same time. I hope we find great exiting new fossils.
Well I do wish everyone happy holidays and I do hope there is more peace in 2007 and war ends in Iraq and injustice ends in the world. I hope poverty will subside and all those who do not have food may be able to have food and fresh water and the necessities that we all in the first world take for granted.
xxxx
I had such a surreal dream and I am now awake.
I woke up at 7am and in my dream I was in a Sydney suburb and I was living in an apartment and there were a lot of eucalyptus trees. Someone next door had left coffee mugs and cups outside in boxes and I decided to take them, then I was worried that they had left them there as they were moving. This is very Sydney, the throw away society, what you don't need you throw away.
Suddenly as I was going home with the cups (beige and boring) and an amazing sugar container with measurements on the side a storm began to brew. Suddenly all the trees began to fall over. They just began to fall at the roots and there was the most loudest crackling sound of the trees uprooting. One by one the trees would uproot and collapse. I was scared that the trees would fall on me. Then the tree outside our house fell but did not hit the house, but i saw a dog lying outside and rushed over. it was my mother's and father's dog Bondi, I thought she had been hit. Then i realized she had a large knife stuck in her snout and going through her palate. I began to pull it out and she suddenly started to move and then wake up and get up. She was ok and not bleeding as I had imagined and she followed me inside where she was a bit dizzy but then was back to her own self. I was so relieved she was ok, but what i found surreal was how real it felt pulling the knife gently out of her snout, fearing she was dead and relieved she was alive. That dream was about life and death, the trees dying, but Bondi the dog alive.
I think I dreamed about the trees as yesterday we were talking about the trees in the Tundra in Siberia and how they are falling over as the snow line has dropped due to the effects increasing temperature and of global warming. This is mentioned in Al Gore's movie An inconvenient truth
I have had such weird dreams since I became pregnant. Now I am nearly four months preggers, I get up every morning at 3am to go to the toilet and can't go back to sleep until about 4.30. I have never had insomnia like this. I then can't sleep and think about life and problems and issues and worries. I guess it is all related to the amazing changes occurring inside of me. At least now I am feeling better than in the first trimester.
By the way Volver the movie was so good at the Moonlight cinema in centennial park. I cried and we were all surrounded by the fruit bats flying above us into trees and their loud vibrant chatter. There is a review today in SMH and an interview with Penelope Cruz.
It is nearly 7pm. the last of the cricket is on, and Jas is telling me the score by google talk while he is at work in North Sydney, Australia is batting and needs a few runs to win, as England is winning by a small amount of runs. Only 30 runs are needed, Jas says Australia should win now. It is the Ashes after all.
I went for a walk down to Coogee with a friend and her little 10 month old boy and had a yogurt and some fresh watermelon, orange and apple juice.
I can smell someone cooking a barbecue outside and hear the birds way out by the tress and peoples voices. I have the windows open and a sea breeze is coming through. I thought I saw a whale out in the ocean, when I went for a walk this afternoon there was a lot of splashing and seagulls hovering.
There were a lot of people sun baking and bathing, kids and youngsters hanging out.
Summer is here in the Southern Hemisphere, but in Argentina summer does not officially start till the 21st of December.
Summer is a time for change and a time for reflexion.
Things are changing for me, for us, for jas and I and for my family. I wonder where we will be this time next year, in Australia or somewhere else?
This week has gone fast already and I have so much to do, I have not done much but I want to catch up on some things.
Jas also got tickets to see Volver at the Moonlight Cinema in Centennial Park. There are different movies on at outside cinemas all around the country. I think that will be relaxing and quite exciting as I have wanted to see that movie for a while. I actually saw it being reviewed on the Sunday show 2 Sundays ago, and for some reason I started to cry. I am quite sentimental.
Lately I have been sentimental, I think I know why, but it is strange as a few months ago nothing made me shed a tear not even puppies looking for an adopted home on tv, or animals being born. But not the slightest cutest thing makes me cry. It is silly, hormonal.
I think this is cute though, it a baby elephant in the womb, it was taken with an ultrasound scanner then digitally enhanced. The elephant embryo undergoes an epic 22-month pregnancy, with the foetus eventually tipping the scales at 120 kilograms. Around week 18, it will start exercising its legs and trunk to strengthen muscles and increase dexterity.
I wish I could watch the documentary In the womb on National Geographic Channel, my parents saw it the other night in Esquel, Patagonia with Seba and my grandfather. I told them to copy it for me if it comes on again.